JUST A POST FROM A NOT QUITE OLD YET MUSICIAN WITH A STUPID BROKEN BRAIN CONDITION THAT ANYONE CAN GET - ANYONES BRAIN - YOU DON’T HAVE TO USE THAT BRAIN MUCH OR EVEN TAKE IT OUT OF THE PACKAGE.
Some people light a candle and curse the light, they blame God for the cards they have been delt. I can't do that, there have been nights however, long, sleepless, and painful nights that if I were to find the repsposable party for my parkinsons induced steel wool hayride I would not hesitate to stick a size ten boot upside their rear. If God, The Universe, my Dentist, my Cat, or anything else I might believe is responsible for the things that happen to me, hell, it could be that giant, well dressed Giraffe I’m always talking about, if I were to find out they were responsible I would be mad at them, and use my boot in the afore mentioned manner, but I would not blame them,. Blame and self pity are roommates, they are both the same size and wear each other's clothes.
When I go to the beach I sometimes wonder will this be the last time I ever do this? Then I reflect on all the children that are born everyday blind, the’ll never even know what the color blue is, the color of a clear summer sky as it cradles a slightly darker blue ocean. There are many in this life who have it much worse than I do.
I go camping and on a long hike - will this be the last time for this, maybe the last time...I don’t know. I then think of the 19 year old soldier coming home from a futile war somewhere - a distant land were they left behind their legs. Or I remember a good friend who spent his adult life in a wheelchair. There are many in this life who have it much worse than I do.
There are many examples were a person is robbed of a basic human ability; I was blessed with a doozy, parkinsons is not a disease you die from, it's one you live with, you live with it everyday as it slowly robs you and what it takes it doesn't give back. Don't bother calling the police they can only intervene after it's too late. You never get better in almost all cases it only gets worse - I can look forward to a lot of last times, but we all can. The key is to realize that there can also be a lot of first times ahead. Since my diagnosis I’ve performed a stand-up comedy routine - produced a solo CD of songs I wrote - been to Paris twice, Jamaica and LA - developed a solo music act - I started a blog that I am using as the backbone of a book I am writing about my life fighting pd - and I am working on my next CD. I also have started a new journey down an untraveled turnpike as an artist , a painter. - I have been met with to what I feel are positive and encouraging reviews I am a passionate painter that paints emotion. using color - line and shape instead of notes and words to tell the story i am obligated to tell
I am not giving up - I am not slowing down. I am not engaging in blame and feeling sorry for myself, for there are many in this life who have it much worse than me. I am reminded of the old platitude but with my added twist...
I was complaining about having a brokeN brain until I met a man with no head.
Have a wonderful 2015 and my it be filled with serendipitious creativity that makes your heart and spirit soar with joy. I promise to talk less this year about what has taken from me and more about what I have been given.
Have a great day... I know i will.
just say yes!
meet Andy Ward King, a professional musician and artist until a diagnosis of parkinons dsease at age 49 forced him into an early retirement., he now uses his music, his art along with the whimsical world he has created in this blog as therapy to ( as he puts it ) outsmart his brain and make the daily battles with parkinson’s a little bit easier, to give him that all important reason to get up on the morning, to make his life worth living. Andy has learned how to say NO to gving up \ NO to depression and apathy \ NO to following willingly the road of decline that stretches before him. he learned that to say no to all of these things all one has to do is say yes. Andy has learned to just say YES to life/\\